Parker

I just wanted to remember this conversation.



So, I have a doctors appointment when I go home to find out whether I'm crazy or not.

Shit.

Yeah, I'm really nervous about it. It runs in my family. I just haven't been excited about anything in a long time. Like, I can't get really happy. It freaks me out. I don't want to be crazy.

It's okay, I'm crazy, I just never let any one diagnose me.

Yeah, you seem crazy. I just think about shit, you know? I have to be alone a lot.

No, me too, there's nothing crazy about that, right?

No, I don't think so. I think it's cool how much time you spend with yourself. I think that's why I've been crazy lately, I haven't been alone enough. Rachel's like cancer, you know? She's always going, going, going, and I feel bad, because I want to hang out with her, I just need to get back to being sane.

Yeah, but I think she understands that. She seems cool. I mean, I don't really know her, but...

Yeah, she's cool. But, I don't know, I just start to think too much. I look at all of this, and, like, what is this? What is the point of all of this? Like, how much money went into all of this? If a meteor hit the Earth it wouldn't even matter, you know? It wouldn't be a big deal. I mean, it would, but it wouldn't affect anything, you know?

Wow, yeah.

I'm sorry, I shouldn't be saying this to you because maybe it's what's making me crazy.

No, look, I promise I am just as crazy as you are.

Yeah?

Yeah... I mean, I can't do anything in odd numbers. Like, I'm fucking terrified of ending up with one Q-tip when I need two. Looking at bristles makes me salivate. I'm addicted to brushing my teeth. It's weird, I don't know, I just am. I can't be in groups of people. They make me nervous, especially kids my age. I'm a fucking loner. And I think I have an alien living in my body. I swear to God. I mean, I know it's not true.

An alien?

Yes.

Really?

...yeah. see?

I want to be a ghost hunter.

That's cool, man.

When I was 11 I saw one. It was a nun, and I was in Maine. Me and my dad were walking through this abandoned house, and I saw this nun and I just thought maybe it wasn't totally abandoned, you know? Like, I was 11, i didn't assume ghost.

Holy shit, dude. I'm freaking out.

Yeah, like I pointed her out to my dad, and he couldn't see her, and he got really sketched out.

I'm fucking terrified right now.

then he said the place used to be a coven, and I didn't know what that was.

A what? ...A convent, you mean?

A convent! Yes!